Sunday, February 22, 2015

Tolson 4 TEARS* Cheers RAACE: Race Against Abuse of Children Everywhere

Thank you to RAACE.org for featuring author of Beyond the Tears: A True Survivor's Story, Lynn C. Tolson, in it's February 2015 newsletter.



RAACE stands for The Race Against Abuse of Children Everywhere. From the website: "A 501 (c)(3) non-profit organization dedicated to eliminating child sexual abuse before it happens. Our mission is to raise public awareness and provide tools to help families protect children at home, in their community, and all over the world. Child sexual abuse is a silent epidemic that remains taboo and therefore thrives in the shadows of society. RAACE is dedicated to changing that, because we believe that preventing abuse starts with awareness."


Visit the RAACE website to see how the organization participates in a "variety of family-centric venues including concerts, picnics, community events, sporting events and the like, where our RAACE team members adorn our branded purple and gold to help us spread awareness and break the silence of the epidemic of child sexual abuse." You will find resources for parents, teens, and survivors at the site.

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Sunday, February 15, 2015

Tolson 4 TEARS* Reviews "No Tears for my Father: A True Story of Incest"

Review of No Tears for my Father: A True Story of Incest by Viga Boland



No Tears for my Father is a memoir about the abuse of a girl at the hands of her father. At the beginning, the author offers a “trigger warning” to protect those who may experience flashbacks while reading and ruminating over the horrible treatment of a precious child. A true story about incest is bound to be an emotionally charged read.

Viga’s style of story telling is straightforward: she stays with the story in a manner that clearly states the torture she suffered. She writes, "That's the way it happened and that's how it must be told." The content is not veiled by vague metaphors, but is conveyed in concise detail. Viga explores the betrayal and brainwashing she endured via the despicable mind-games and manipulations delivered by her father. He was a narcissistic, dangerous, mean-spirited monster who played on her sympathies with his delusions over his own perceived victimhood. Viga was taught by him to bear the responsibility for his well-being; there was no relief for her, from girlhood to adulthood. Meanwhile, her broken mother offered no safety or security, so her depraved father took everything from Viga, body, mind, and spirit. The reader cannot walk away without an understanding of the evil inherent in incest.

The torment Viga was subjected to was a daily occurrence in her seemingly ordinary childhood houses, from Australia to Canada. Nobody could rescue her from her father’s obsessive control vis a vis unfathomable abuse. No one would estimate the depths of her fear of the man who seemed to be an ordinary neighbor. This illustrates the prevalence of abuse in the privacy of homes.

With pictures, poetry, and prose, Viga Boland exposes her vulnerabilities. The reader may comprehend how difficult it is for a writer to share the worst wounds. Yet there is strength to behold as the story unfolds. Both reader and writer are better for having finished this book because it serves as a genuine gift of hope and healing.



Viga Boland @vintageblogger is active in the advocacy network, sharing her knowledge and experience to help facilitate recovery for those affected by trauma. She's developed videos that offer information about incest and abuse, which can be viewed here http://www.youtube.com/vigaland 

You can visit COMING OUT FROM UNDER INCEST which Viga Boland developed as "the blog of an incest survivor, designed to encourage other survivors of child sexual abuse to open up & talk about incest." In addition, she has a Facebook page and group page Speak Out From Under.



When you finally come out from under
And absolve yourself of blame
When you cast aside the crippling fears
And rid yourself of shame
As you peel away the layers
To expose the soul below
You will come to love that person
The one you didn't know.
©  Viga Boland 2012


The sequel to No Tears for My Father is Learning to Love Myself, a memoir of rebirth and recovery from abuse. "In keeping silent about the abuse for over 40 years of marriage, Viga indirectly also made her husband a victim of her narcissistic father. Yet her husband stood strong beside her, even after he discovered the truth. That’s true love." The book contains poetry and photos. You can purchase both books here .All printed copies ordered from this site are personally signed and shipped by Viga Boland.

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As if this is not enough work, Viga Boland has developed a Facebook group to support others in their stories, along with a printed magazine for memoir writers, available for purchase at her website. You can request to join the group Memoirabilia here.


Monday, January 26, 2015

Tolson 4 TEARS* Reviews "The Monster's Game"

The Monster’s Game is written by Littlegirl413, who chooses to remain anonymous. Such is the shame of being sexually abused from the ages of 4 to 16. To write about these traumatic experiences of abuse is often the method to reduce the shame, and place it back where it rightfully belongs, on the perpetrator. Littlegirl413 does that for herself, and other survivors, in her book of poetry and illustrations.

Statistics show** that 1 in 3 girls and 1 in 6 boys are sexually abused before the age of eighteen. As a child victim, the author of The Monster’s Game is revealing her innermost thoughts and emotions, using her creative writing as a path on her healing journey. She also serves to shed light upon the prevalence of child abuse.

Littlegirl413’s poetry is relatable to the reader. (I found myself holding my breath in resonance.) The prose is clear, not “masked” by metaphor; this concise, unclouded style may be part of her healing process, as the subject of “masks” surfaced throughout the book. Nor are there graphic scenarios that might frighten a vulnerable reader. Hers is a powerful story of incest and betrayal, told in the form of lyrical poetry and art illustrations.

Art is a healing medium for many survivors of childhood trauma. Littlegirl413 combined her talents for words and pictures to create a book that is little's book of poetry that is Big on Healing.

*Tolson 4 TEARS: Telling Everyone About Rape & Suicide, so no shed tear is wasted

Review completed by Lynn C. Tolson, author of Beyond the Tears: A True Survivor's Story

**Thank you to the National Association of Adult Survivor's of Child Abuse for providing a concise resource page for statistics.

You can hear the author Littlegirl413 talk about her experiences on Blog Talk Radio on SCAN: Stop Child Abuse Now, hosted by Bill Murray  (see episode embedded below).





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Monday, January 12, 2015

Tolson 4 TEARS* Cheers Svava Brooks, Advocate

Bravo to Svava Brooks for her devotion to prevention of child abuse and advocacy for survivors! Ms Brooks is a survivor of child sexual abuse and speaks openly about her experience in the hopes that it will help others know they are not alone. She leads by example in breaking the silence on this devastating and pervasive problem of incest. She has dedicated her life to ending the cycle of abuse through education and awareness, as well as by supporting survivors. Svava also reaches out by offering online peer support for adult survivors of child sexual abuse at one health.com,  which provides personalized support for survivors of childhood sexual trauma. 

Svava Brooks has developed a program to help survivors, which includes FREE tools for starting your healing journey after sexual trauma. She says, "You CAN heal yourself. You CAN take charge of your life again! Here are the steps & resources that were essential in my healing, that put me on the path to empowerment - they CAN do the same for you."

I have watched the videos of the program Svava offers, and followed the accompanying PDF materials. She has offered her personal experience and extensive education to support survivors in a gentle yet effective manner. You can begin here Tools to Heal Your Life with the Roadmap to Healing.

Svava is a Certified Instructor and Facilitator for Darkness to Light Stewards of Children, a child sexual abuse prevention program. She provides evidence-based training throughout California.  In addition, Svava has developed programs for adults and teens to learn about the prevention of child sexual abuse.


Svava Brooks efforts are global. She is the co-founder of a child sexual abuse prevention and education organization in Iceland, Blátt áfram

Svava also maintains a web site at Educate4change, which is dedicated to ending the cycle of child sexual abuse. The blog at Speak4change offers information on how survivors can get the help they need, as well as providing education for ending child sexual abuse. Svava says, "You are not alone, together we can stop the cycle, together we can heal via awareness, education, and support." Svava knows that "we are stronger together." svava@educate4change.com Facebook page here

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Post completed by Lynn C. Tolson, author of Beyond the Tears: A True Survivor's Story

Monday, January 5, 2015

Tolson 4 TEARS* Reviews "Fearless Confessions: A Writer's Guide to Memoir"

Sue William Silverman was my role model for memoir because she had dared to write about issues usually silenced in our society. She wrote Because I Remember Terror, Father I Remember You and Love Sick: One Woman's Journey Through Sexual Addiction. Then, I had the pleasure of meeting her at Vermont College of Fine Arts, post-graduate writer’s conference, where she was faculty/advisor. She taught the group metaphor, voice, and technique, and encouraged expression from the writer within each individual. Sue urged us toward Fearless Confessions, an apt title for the Writer’s Guide to Memoir. Despite my notes from the conference, and hand-outs from Sue, I wished I had a “go-to” guide at my fingertips. Sue has made such a guide available in Fearless Confessions.
The book contains chapters that have writing exercises and inserts with tips. Sue also arranged for appropriate articles by other authors, which exemplify what Sue is conveying in the body of the chapter. Sue generously offers examples of her own. I was especially moved by her revealing essay The Pat Boone Fan Club. That is what a memoirist does: revealing life matter that one thinks is individual, yet the emotions are universal. Some confessional memoirs put into words what others are thinking, but are afraid to say aloud. Sue dares us to dig deep and write down, such as with an exercise that asks the reader to “Write a short paragraph about a secret you’ve never told anyone, except maybe a therapist.”
Sue explains the craft of writing, and elements such as “the voice of innocence” and “the voice of experience” She leads us to websites, books, marketing opportunities, and publishing options. (note of disclosure: Sue used my essay From Process to Product: Using Print-on-Demand to Publish in Appendix two).
I eagerly awaited Fearless Confessions because I wanted to hold Sue Silverman’s knowledge and ability in the palm of my hand. Sue packs more in 237 pages than I ever expected. If you want to write a memoir, let Sue’s “go-to” guide you to write it right.


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Review completed by Lynn C. Tolson, author of Beyond the Tears: A True Survivor's Story
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Fearless Confessions: A Writer's Guide to Memoir
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Monday, November 17, 2014

Tolson 4 TEARS* on "How Are You Feeling?"

In therapy, clients talk about their feelings. Therapists ask, "How are you feeling today?" 

Conversations with my therapist(s) frequently sounded like this:


“Lynn, what are you feeling?”
“I don’t know.”
“You must be feeling something.”
“No, nothing.”
“Please, tell me what it feels like.”
“I don’t know.”

I shrugged my shoulders, which was not an acceptable answer to the question of “how are you feeling.” How should I know? I had no clue, no compass, and no map to lead me through the hot and sweaty tropical jungle of twisted emotional thorny vines that lay strangled with family secrets and lies.

My step-father had taught me to deny my feelings at seven years old. He said, “Whenever someone asks you how you are doing, you say, ‘Fine, thank you,’ no matter what.” He added, “Speak only when you are spoken to.” He raised me under his spell of “children should be seen and not heard.” These powerful childrearing dictates led to the cold, calculating climate of control that froze all feelings into a block of ice that could only be released when talk-therapy chipped at the surface decades later.

What I felt was numb, which is a suppression of real feelings. Talking about my experiences and emotions in therapy years later did not feel good. If/when I felt, I felt crappy. Even in the company of a therapist I sensed I was safe with, one whom I trusted and developed rapport with, I dared not enter the realm of emotion. I was afraid to unlock my heart and uncover emotions. If I felt a bona fide feeling, I would surely go insane.

I felt all alone. Loneliness envelopes my being, seals me in a tomb lacking air. I am trapped in the darkness of my heart, all alone, Choking and grasping to find tender loving care.
With that admission of feeling in the form of prose, my therapist taught me that putting words to experiences and the emotions they carry can dispel the hold they had on me. She said, “As your fears recede, courage will emerge. Love was locked inside, shielded by fear. When the darkness of fear disappears, the light of love appears. You built walls around yourself to block out bad feelings, so you also blocked out any good that could come your way. You perpetuate pain by locking up feelings.”

My therapist explained that the depression used to cover up emotions can become a permanent part of the personality. She said, “The symptoms of anxiety and depression you experience are not personality flaws but the consequence of childhood wounds. When you excavate and explore emotions, you allow the fear to fade.” Digging deep like this may alleviate the depression, and allow room for expansion of joyful feelings.

I also had to accept that emotions are transitory, universal, and can co-exist. I had to trust that feeling would not drive me crazy. I learned that feeling could lead to positive emotions, especially L-O-V-E. I understood that in my head, but I needed to feel it in my heart.

Transformation from fear to love requires more than rationalization and intellectualization. Healing transpires from fully feeling emotions, and then taking necessary action, like this: determine the cause of an emotion, identify the feeling, and acknowledge its presence. Honor an emotion in the moment; just be with it, and that is more like going sane.

My therapist and I started with where I was at: scared to death of the world at large. There was a pervasive apprehension that cast an ominous shadow on my world. Slowly, we examined the fear to make it manageable. With each exhale of fear, I could inhale the courage to face my fears, feeling compassion for myself and others. As Eleanor Roosevelt says, “You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. . . You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.” That is how we learn how to feel.




Post completed by Lynn C. Tolson, author of Beyond the Tears: A True Survivors Story
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